Is that I am getting really sick of being expected to go here and there and loan out my van when I have things to get done because if I hadn't asked Jess to go out the night her van got hit then it would still be running, not really the sensors are all jacked up and that's something that apparently was going when she bought it. But I still feel responsible for it and her so guess who just has to say ok instead of no when I want to? I really try to be a good friend but it's frustrating when you're loaning your vehicle to someone who doesn't put gas in it and when they use it to go to the store it takes them 3 to 4 fucking hours. Who takes that long to get groceries when the store is right up the freaking street? It doesn't take that long. I have to get groceries to feed a family of 4.5 and it takes me maybe an hour, hour and a half tops. She is feeding a family of 2. That's it. 2 , her and her daughter. How the hell does that take 3 to 4 freaking hours? I take her to doctors appts, pick her up, pick up her kid to take to and from the bus stop every day, I let her use my washer and dryer and use my van to transport her laundry, and she still treats me like I'm the enemy half the fucking time. I'm pregnant, I'm tired, I am tired of giving a shit. I really am starting to regret her ever moving here.
We might be moving to Zanesville after our lease is up because it is closer to all the old people who are getting so old that they need help with stuff , its closer to family (rex's) and its much more cost effective for us to live there. and what do I get? Grief from Jess because I wont tell Rex no we can't move there for completely understandable reasons. He is my husband and our sole provider of finances and the love of my life of course I am going to move where he feels we need to especially when it's going to help us financially as well. We're barely keeping our heads above water living in this house, I would like to be able to not stress out about rent and bills for once in my life. It would be so good for my family and my mental health as well.
I am sorry I just use this blog to vent. I don't feel like I really can anywhere else.
Hey in some good news, I have an appointment on monday to find out what variety of baby I am having.
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from what ive read in other blogs as well as this one, one jess isn't being much of a friend and two you need to support your husband ur right. plus you have expressed money reasons too. poor thing you must be mucho stressed.
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