The bus stops here

I know you're probably really sick of hearing me bitch. Lord knows I'm sick of bitching. So because I try to help people I just feel like I'm being taken advantage of, totally walked all over. I loaned Jess my van today so she could get groceries and guess what? It's almost 2pm. I put my key where she could get it at 9am. Now correct me if I'm wrong but dont you think if you're borrowing, key word being BORROWING, your friends van that you'd go get it as early as it was available and then NOT be out til 2? It just seems to me that if you needed the van that long you would have said, hey I need to take your van for like 5 hours. Not can I borrow your van to drop off laundry and get groceries? It's bullshit and from now on out, I'm not doing anything nice for anyone. I'm sick of the bullshit and I'm sick of feeling like an asshole for wanting to use MY van and I'm sick of feeling like an asshole for wondering where MY van is when it's almost 2 and I have to get the kids at 2:30, HER kid included btw. I dont have to be nice and pick up her kid and drop her off. I dont. I don't have to be nice and pick up her kid in the morning so they don't have to walk to the bus stop. I don't. I do because I don't want them to have to walk in the cold morning air and I pick her up cause it's just a few minutes from my house and again it's cold. So why am I being made to feel like an asshole because I am not in the mood to have to wait all fucking afternoon to get MY van. Does that make me an asshole?