What was a saying about ranting?

I freakin hate hate hate the idiots that I have to deal with. They have no concept of family from a realistic stand point. They think only about what they want and not whats best for every body. it makes me sick. It makes me want to pull my hair out. It's not good for me to be this stressed out. You know I have NO issue with people who need state aid , I mean NEED it. But for some mother fucker who works a slack ass job and lives with people , not roommates family, for a small rent of 100 bucks a month and cant bother to pay it all the time because why? because the worst thing that will happen to him is he'll get yelled at. Needs state aid why? To pay for food ? he has a job less rent than ANYONE but where does his money go? Pawn shops to keep his musical equipment from getting sold because he pawned it for drugs and to buy pot. Seriously, wtf? But he is the better parent and surely should be raising an almost teenager. How the hell does this happen? I don't do drugs, I pay my bills as well as I can, I send money when I can for her and thats another thing that chaps my hide, I have to send it through the bureau of child support or write checks to his aunt because I can't trust him to spend the money on my daughter. How freakin sad is that? I bought her a new computer for christmas last year and the only thing I asked him was to get her a printer. Has he? No, guess who is buying her a printer for Christmas this year? Yeah thats right , me. It makes me wonder if he bought her anything last year. I gave her money to get more school clothes at the end of the summer than I had already bought (500 dollars worth) and what does the money get spent on? a nintendo DSI for her. WHY? because he can get a voucher from the state to get her clothes. That is such a gross abuse of the system that is set up to help people who are really in need. Worst part of this is, I was getting ready to start the ball in motion so that she could come live with me, turns out because he kidnapped her and took her to wv without my consent in the first place and the state had to file a child support order against me adn I couldn't go down there when the hearing was and show that he shouldn't even have her because I had NO WAY to get to west virginia, guess what, I don't even have established parental rights, I found this out this week, so I have to establish those first and I , yes me, I have to take a parenting class. Because you know the fact that I have two very well behaved children in my custody shouldn't be proof enough that I'm not too bad at this parenting thing. But I cant do anything because I have to wait til I have this baby because everytime I start talking to lawyers and such I start to cramp up and my god I am NOT going to have a miscarriage because of getting stressed out because people are stupid fucks and can't see that when my daughter says she wants to live with me and I have a room for her and live in a good neighborhood and can give her the time she needs with a parent that they think its better to live with her pot head dad and share a room with a grandparent who smokes cigarettes around her often. This makes me freakin crazy. And thats my rant for the day.