damn damn damn crap

I am seriously going to lose my freaking mind. Neoma's dad has now threatened to not let her come here for Christmas because she's still grounded for getting a few bad grades. What kind of crap is that? I just don't even know what I can do at all. I've spoken with one lawyer that says I haven't established my parental rights to her. I gave birth to her and she lived with me on and off til those people took her down to wv and swore they were bringing her back and then didn't. FUCKIN bullshit. She is miserable down there and wants to move here and her great aunt that they live with thinks that she would be better off with me so does her great uncle that lives there as well. However her "Mawmaw" and dad have it in their heads that she should be there where her dad smokes pot at the home and she gets second hand smoke from sleeping in a room with "mawmaw" Her dad also sleeps all the time so tonight I asked what she was having for dinner, its after 7 , her dad is asleep, she has to make herself ramen.
I swear I wish someone would just call CPS and report drug use in the home. I wont because I love Maxine, her great aunt, and don't want her to deal with any grief. I just don't freakin understand how they play these mental games with her. They can't see what is going on, she wants to live here. I can give her a good home with her own room in a drug free , smoke free environment. I don't do drugs, I don't even really use bad language around her. She and I talk about what's going on with her, I listen, she's at an age where she needs me. I'm just so frustrated with this whole damn mess. That's what it is. A huge freakin mess. I don't wish any of those people ill will. I want my daughter that's all. I want her to live with me where I know she can be healthy and happy and well adjusted. She told me over the summer that her dad told her one day he hoped that she could sit down and smoke some pot with him. What kind of dad does that? who the hell says that to their kid? Not me. It's just ridiculous. I don't want my kid to waste her life and do drugs and live at home when she's in her 30's. That's all there is to it. I wish someone besides me had the balls to just call cps and report his drug use so they would take her out of the home and place her with me.